2 months to go

Done with psyciatry video exam. Was asked on clips on eating disorder and persecutory delusion. Thot I did fairly okay. The result was disappointing tho'. Well, what's done is done. Hafta face the music. Can only look forward now.

Finished reading A's book If You Could See Me Now by C.Ahern. Love it! Such a light read yet managed to make me laugh and teary at the same time. Or maybe it's just me. Emotional incontinence. Hehh.

I bought a book for myself after the exam. The Line of Beauty by Alan Hollinghurst. Just 1 euro tau! And it's a hardback too! What a bargain kan? Tapi belum rasa nak baca lah. Coz I cant start reading a book and not finishing it. There are other books begging me to open them now; Ophthalmology. The Duke Elder exam's on Wednesday. Since there is no pressure to excel in it, and there's also the money back guarantee, the 'whateverr' attitude is dominating.

Cant wait to go back to the people I love. Two more months!

Derealisation & Depersonalisation

Are you feeling:

disembodied,
divorced from yourself,
apart from everything,
unattached,
alone,
strange,
weird,
foreign,
unfamiliar,
dead,
puppet-like,
robot-like,
acting a part,
like a lifeless, two dimensional, 'cardboard' figure',
made of cotton-wool,
having mechanical actions,
remote,
automated,
a spectator,
witnessing ones own actions as if in a film or on a TV programme,
not doing ones own thinking,
observing the flow of ideas in the mind as independent?
YOU MIGHT SUFFER FROM DEPERSONALISATION.

Do you experience:

spaciness,
feel like looking through a grey veil,
a sensory fog, spaced-out,
being trapped in a glass bell jar,
in a goldfish bowl,
behind glass,
in a Disney-world dream state,
withdrawn,
feeling cut off or distant from the immediate surroundings,
like being a spectator at some strange and meaningless game,
objects appear diminished in size,
flat,
dream-like,
cartoon-like,
artificial;
objects appear to be unsolid, to breathe, or to shimmer;
'as if my head were inside a Coke bottle and I'm viewing the world through the thick glass at the bottom' ?
YOU MIGHT SUFFER FROM DEREALISATION.

People, these two jargons, depersonalisation & derealisation, are symptoms of anxiety disorder.

Weird stuff.

The Coke bottle one is funny tho'. Heh.

another BIRTHDAY ENTRY

Nazeera dearest....

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY!!!!

We celebrated her birthday last night. After 4 years being housemates, I must admit we're run out of ideas to make surprise party. Right, last night wasn't really a 'parteyy' but it was good. We have been busier these days (except for us doing psych), so it's good to get together like that. Come to think about it, last night was more like a slumber party, really. Everyone was in pj's (or their version of a pj hehe), and we talked about lotsa stuff..talk and talk and laugh and talk and laugh and laugh till our tummy hurt..hehh.....

To Naz, it's great knowing you. I hope this friendship lasts forever. Eventho' you'd want to stay in Penang like forever.. do come to KL to visit us eh..hehehhh.....luv you my fren!

Birthday entry

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST ROOMMIE!!

Seronok betul dia dapat byk presents..well sape yg tak suka ye tak? ;)

Weird lil' kiddo this one..haha...but love her anyhow.

I didnt expect I would open up to her as much as I did..I guess her rather different perspective, or perhaps naiveness, is refreshing.

Good to know you mate!

May Allah bless you always. Amin.

Psychiatry so far

Baru balik from Portlaoise. B&B yang best! Padanle dgn harganye:45 per night! Takpe..UCD reimburse. It better be soon tho. Pokai jg skrg ni..

Setakat ni, I don't see myself doing psychiatry in future...

Bile ade psychiatrist yang tanye sape yg nak specialise in psych nanti, no one answered..hening sekali..nasib baik takde bunyi cengkerik je..hehh...

Psych is interesting indeed, tapi kurang menambat hati ku lah..

Rasenye kalau pun satu hari nanti aku nak amek psych jugak, the reason would not be a genuine interest in it.. just a 'maybe'..

Lain2..malas nak update..nantilah ye..

F.O.U.R

JOBS:
1. Babysitter utk anak2 kakwan, and anak2 kakdi jugak kot. Hehe. Kire keje lah ni, coz diorang kasi upah. :D
2. Domestic engineer. Mama kasi upah jugak ni! (note to B: tapi org tak mintak tau!)
3. Nil.
4. Nil.

MOVIES I LOVE:
1. How to lose a guy in 10 days
2. Finding Nemo
3. The Incredibles
4. I love animations lah…

PLACES I’VE LIVED:
1. KL
2. Kuala Terengganu
3. Dublin
4. Kelantan (not sure if this counts. I was brought up by my grandparents till I was 1 yr old)

TV SHOWS I LOVE TO WATCH:
1. Friends
2. Smallville
3. Desperate Housewives
4. E.R

PLACES I’VE BEEN ON VACATION:
1. Indonesia - jakarta and bandung
2. Malaysia – mostly islands
3 & 4 & more . Europe: Spain, Belgium, and 9 other countries that I went with Kelana Convoy, and Ireland of course!

BLOGS I VISIT (not so) DAILY:
1. Peah
2. Niesa
3. Hani
4. Shiny media sites e.g. shoewawa etc.

FAVOURITE FOODS:
1. Anything chocolate!
2. Nasi lemak sambal kerang.
3. Mama’s lala masak lemak
4. Err..anything seafood..except certain type of seashells..

PLACES I’D RATHER BE:
1. 151, Jalan Ikhlas, Bandar Tun Razak!
2. Wherever B is…
3. Vacation in Turkey. Agree with Niesa on this one.
4. Nak pegi East Europe jugak..tapi mahal sehh….

ALBUMS I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
Nah..cant think of any. Havent bought any album for a long time. Sekarang sumer internet maa….

VEHICLES I’VE OWNED:
1. Basikal kire vehicle ke?
2. Would like to own a Beetle. I know, not answering the question.
3. Would like to have a driver too!! Hahahahaa!!!
4. Tapi takkan driver drive beetle kan? Paling2 koman pun mercedes! ;D tingginye la angan2 ko son!!